Why I did not go to Gatsby's Funeral....

Hearing that Gatsby died broke my heart. He was the one I truly wanted, but he scared me because he was asking too much from me. I was stressed due to the yelling that had happened between Tom and Gatsby. Gatsby did get violent and it intimated me. I did not know how to handle myself or what to do. I was afraid to leave the rich life I had and Tom made me scared. Nick kept calling me informing me when the funeral was. I could not go because of mainly Tom. He kept me on close watch and wanted to go on vacation for a while. He did not let me answer the phone and had our workers say that I was unavailable. People would leave messages but, I would never get them. He coincidentally scheduled us to leave the day of the funeral so I could not attend. Yes, I felt bad about not going but a part of me needed to move on. Tom wanted to work on our marriage and us. I agreed with him. We have our family and right now I feel like it is best to focus on that. I did feel bad leaving Nick alone so I did apologize once I heard from him again. Nick seemed to be having a hard time after Gatsby’s death. I wanted to have Nick back in our life. I needed to talk to him about everything and explain myself.